It's not that I don't love you It's just that I can't look in your eyes Without some kind of reaction Telling me that I need to survive The fact of the matter is we can't drive around in your car Without getting in some dumb fucking fight And I'm sick of it Sick of waking up on pins and needles Sick of playing with the dog while I ignore that you're in the room So why not just leave it at that Let's leave it at that Let's leave it at that We're talking about going to bars So we can see other friends of ours So that we can do the work of being in the same room without having to think about each other But we still look like we're dating so nothing has to change And we keep on planning like that and it grows more and more deranged And I'm so sick of it And I can tell you're sick of it And I can tell that your sister's been telling you that you should be sick of it Behind my back And I don't like having to pretend that I like her And I don't like having to pretend that you like me So why not leave it at that I'll pack my bag Invite your friends over You can burn our bed You can sell the house Cause I'm gonna get a Prius and Drive it to the south Freshwater Diver One of two lone survivors Freshwater diver Two lonely lone survivors I make you breakfast You got me from jail And I take out the trash And you bring in the mail And there's something there There's something there There's something there I know I know you want me alive

As I get older I carry this boulder It's a river rock Lodged inside my sock As I am hiking away From what we used to be I am in the riverbed Next to something undead It's twisting away at me It's taking me out to sea It's what I need And it will set me free You're a flower I'm up in a tower Tell me what you need I wanna help you Let me help you I'm singing as you bleed Oh don't read into it It's for the hell of it I'm in my element With my accelerant, yeah I'm clawin' the riverbed I'm chewin' at the bugs I'm screamin' at the river vets Who rode on Noah's Arc Ah ah! I would rather drown Along with our whole town Than go where we're going Now...

Every year Someone loses Every year someone loses the championship It's not that special in the scheme of things Cause every year Someone loses and misses out on those rings And on some random Saturday I'll be drunk doing something dumb and get hit by a car My brains and guts will be splattered on the pavement And at 3 AM my parents will get the call Their lives will will be ruined It will be really sad It will ruin my mom's life as well as the life of my dad But they're not the first, in fact it's almost commonplace Maybe we'll get lucky and it will be all reversed Where I will live a long time and my parents will go first That would be ideal, that's how it's supposed to go And I can also die while I watch my children grow I was at a funeral for a friend's dad Not even a friend, just a guy I kind of know And I felt kind of weird being there But I guess he'll be at that same event for me someday How can I deal with leaving Knowing that once I'm gone I've made everything worse How can I deal with seeing the lifeline of my existence snapped Without having anything to keep some momentum going Seeing the whole world falling apart Dying without a cause If I could be martyred, if god was still alive It would make things a lot easier But as it stands My brains spilling out of my hands Like so much pudding Like so much jello Like so much sugary sweet dessert So When it's 3 AM and the world gets the call That I didn't do anything dramatic, I just took a nasty fall And landed on the part of your skull that just folds like origami I hope you come to my funeral and throw a bunch of orchids on me And everybody who dies this year gets the world as their funeral pyre And god I hope I outlive my parents and I hope I'm not a liar And I don't know how to reach across the sea And I don't know if if anybody can see me But someone loses the championship every year And if it's your team's year this year, well it's some team's year every year, so whatever Whatever Oh whatever It's just hard to deal with When you're cold and you get in the shower and you don't warm up And everybody has got penicillin wrapped around their brain So they can't help you by being something that you can be a part of And when it's your time to return to the river You'll notice Oh you'll notice That there is no heaven for people who don't make it And every piece of misery that you have ever created Will be eternally recapitulated With or without you With or without you With or without you AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

When I was young I knew the speed but not the nature Now I'm at a standstill I can tell you just the flavor When dying is learning Buyers are discerning When hands stop breaking Hearts stop burning When we were young We knew not what we held When we were young So easily felled I know not What it means But I know it makes me Less than more than a human being Yeah Yeah

What is at the foundation? What is at the fundament? What is this vibration? Tell me what is at the root of it! Well I don't have too much to say Maybe I'll bend your ear a while since you came all this way I was born in the dirt at the age of ten Not much has happened 'tween now and then I had brothers, i had eight of them And I had a mother, she was my best friend Now she lives underground And I walk on the ground Now they live underground And I walk on the ground When I was fifteen I had a girl who was full of surprises For her the whole world was full of plot devices By the time I was sixteen didn't know her anymore But I heard last month her grandson found her on the floor Now she lives underground And I walk on the ground Now she lives underground And I walk on the ground How can I make sense of all these years? So much dirt's been packed between my ears Well at this point there's not much left to say Cuz I'm the only who cares anyway Anyway Anyway The clement springtime of our existence The clement springtime of our existence Humanity is a chemical reaction on a fractal surface We're part of the chemistry that makes the cosmos cursive I was born in the dirt at the age of ten I rolled in the mud with my dogs and brothers and friends

My beloved Is a world away What I knew to be true Has already begun to fade Cause when I look within I don't feel that ancient ache When I look within I wonder if I've made the ancient mistake When I think about the kind of drive I like to go on When I think about the kind of night I like There you are your hand in mine completely unplanned just in time I didn't see you didn't set out to think of you but there you are Distance is far Time's even farther Memories in the icebox and I'm raiding the larder I have faith for maybe the first time There is something that I know for sure I don't know who I'll be tomorrow And I don't know who you'll meet tomorrow And i know that we're young enough everything could go so wrong But I have faith for the first time that somehow history will rhyme Cause when I think about about my life The kind of man that I would like to be with you Your hand appears in mine completely unplanned exactly on time God bless God has blessed me to make me alive in the right place at the right time Cause there are decades when nothing happens and there are weeks when your whole life happens I was born in the right fucking state in the right fucking century to have my life changed